after my degree i was so sick of school and feeling like i wasn't working hard enough and my work wasn't good enough and i was so sick of it i was never doing my best. and even before that feeling i was always a little half-arsed about the work anyway.

having 2years out made me really want to be back at school again and now after another 3years studying i'm back to the same old sick of it all feeling. today i've stayed in bed, its now 1pm and i should have been up this morning to shoot, dropped a film off for developing and be in the darkroom by now. instead i just stayed in bed. watched greek. tried to watch one tree hill. and now debating gossip girl. i can always tell when i'm not enjoying life cos i start to escape it with all these silly american teen programs.