Monday, 23 February 2009

I don’t know what I’m doing here. I’m stalling, wasting time until I can think of something else to occupy myself. I’m worried mum n dad are gonna want me to do something professional afterwards and I won’t be able to. And then they’ll be disappointed. All I wanna do is be happy and have fun. Its just not so much fun not knowing. So if only I have control of my future and I don’t even really control my present. I just float along. I don’t feel like I make any conscious decisions. If you ask me to do something I’ll most likely do it. Cos I don’t have any direction of my own. What am I waiting for?

3 comments:

trace said...

i feel in the same boat. i'm having a _lovely_ time where i am, and having a lovely time deciding what i should be doing with my life, but in the end, i don't know if i _will_ do anything 'professional' with my life... does it matter though..?

t x

262_soozie_q said...

i don't think so. it was a moment of anxiety brought on by the thought of 'personal professional development' class!! i skived it anyway!!

i do feel that i don't wanna move to london and push my way into the photography world. i partly feel this way because i'm not technically good enough. maybe i will be at the end of things.

you decided on a course for urself?

trace said...

yes. environmental science. i'm going to save the world (in six plus years time, so look after it until then please).

t x